Simply veii

Quote

2012-02-01T21:37:00.002+08:00

you cant be happy if you give up every time things get tough

random-ing part two

2012-01-28T20:58:00.001+08:00

well. i'm back here with random thoughts of mine :p

so, i just read a blog, a married woman's. how she share a story about her baby, her pregnancy, how it hurt to breastfeed and now even harder as she's having her second when she still has to breastfeed her first baby, how tired she is to prepare daily stuff and etc.

what running on my mind is "this person is just crazy. how come she has another baby when her first is not even ONE year old?" but after reading another posts of hers, i do understand. people can have a plan, for this case is by "Keluarga Berencana" program BUT still if God let you have it, you'll have it.

well, she's just great :) being a mom isn't an easy job. it is really a tough time, but it's all pay off by seeing the children grow up.

just by reading her posts, i feel like being a housewife is really really tiring and she's not even have a maid to help her doing daily stuff. well, i know for sure about the "tiring" part just by looking at my mom. she's working yet she still can prepare everything for us. she cooks when i'm still sleeping, she cleans everything and fix things whenever it's broken. she's really patience, calm and accepts everything even sometimes she did complain a bit :) human nature :p

another thing is, about being a full-time mother or half-time mother, means a mom who works. i read someone's status on facebook, well she's a teacher in my high school. "career can always wait" well it's true for a point that you can't miss your baby growing. but, sometimes when you stop your career temporarily, it means you stop it permanently..
it'll be great if we can do both right? but sometimes humans do have to choose. well, it seems not fair though.

just wonder, can i be a good mom? a good wife? even i'm working? can i balance it out?

well, let's see how in a couple years ahead :p

ah. i miss my mommy :(

random-ing

2012-01-27T23:14:00.004+08:00

absolutely gonna be on the list of "my wedding song" :)

after CNY

2012-01-26T14:14:00.000+08:00

so.. here i am again. back to malaysia *sigh* at first what i want to do when i back here is, studying. catch up the lessons as i miss the first week. but then, here still in CNY holiday mood. the textbook is out of stock.. the uni is soooooo quiet. rawr. wrong choice +.+

minimarket down stairs also closed, means = cant buy water! graaa. try to buy at the cafe, it is the same. geez. so, have to wait at least two more days for me to get those water. for this remaining two days? ask housemates to share theirs first then .__.

ahniweyss.. last week i attended his bro's wedding :3
here is some photos taken :)

ah and for cny! i never post my dad's photo right?
so here he comes! :D

me and daddy ;3

mommy and daddy :)

AH RIGHT! i forgot one more thing! bumbi also got one angpao! :p

heartbeat

2012-01-18T09:36:00.002+08:00

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :(
dua hari lagi.
menunggu hal itu, hal yang bikin ga enak tidur
hal yang selalu jadi kepikiran belakangan ini
gimana nasibnya ya?
gimana bentuknya?

result oh result..
why you do this to me? rawr

bumbi!

2012-01-16T22:05:00.001+08:00

ini edisi si monyet busuk yang namanya bumbi :3 lahir sekitaran bulan juni, datang ke habitat velia bulan juli tengah. sekarang dia udah lumayan jinak. tapi sayang suaranya belom pecah, jadi dia belom jadi laki laki seutuhnya. masi anak anak atau lebih tepatnya dia masih bisa disebut batita :D

dia monyet modern, gasuka pisang. maunya makanan aneh aneh. dan dia suka ngambek, just like yang ngasih monyet ini :p

mari dilihat sajaa foto foto monyet inii :3 walaupun dia mungkin ga lucu di mata kalian, tapi dia sangat lucu di mata saya :)

santa bumbi

gimme flower!

this kaastangel looks yum!

cravin' for pizza

tiramisu :9

demam bola :3

new clothes :D:D:D

holiday

2012-01-16T21:55:00.001+08:00

hi! long time no see! :D
baru dapet mood lagi buat nulis :p ini juga gara gara tadi sore temen bilang ada group work yang harus segera dibuat. kalo ga juga bakal tidur tiduran leha leha baca novel di kamar *babi memang*

kenapa ada group work? ituu karena seharusnya hari ini saya sudah kembali di kandang mungil saya di malaysia sana. tetapii karena memanjangkan liburan, well. i'm still stuck here :p
selalu deh yaa tiap kali ada assignment, uda nyalain laptop, mengerahkan segala hati buat ngerjain itu, tapi teteeeeep aja ujung ujungnya pasti browse sana sini. dan nanti bakalan keder kalo uda deket deadline. hmm kali ini kayanya jangan gitu deh yaa. bikin majalan inii repoot kalo mepet mepet, sekarang aja mau nyari content yang benerbener qualified belom nemuu.

uda lamaaaaaa ya rasanya ga nge post dalam bahasa indo :p ah untuk hari ini, berhubung masih di indo, lagi biasa ngomong indo terus, ijinkan saya untuk menulis dalam bahasa indo sahaja nyehehe

hmm. liburan, well. not so bad sih. tapi rasanya sekarang uda susah banget yaa mau ngumpul sama temen sma :( ga dapet momen libur yang pas bener bener bisa bareng dehh. *sigh*
kemaren itu juga sempet ketemuan sama anak anak kelas xii duluu. makan makan aja sih tapi seru juga :D

mau ngoceh apalagi ya? hmm. kayanya ga ada lagi ah. eh ada ding! kemaren itu bikin bikin kue kering sama si mama. uda gitu sempet jait baju juga buat bumbi (monyet budut itu)!! :D

attach foto foto aja deh yuuuk~

central park - 17 desember 2011


hongkong cafe - 17 desember 2011


smak 5 - 19 desember 2011

smak 5 - 19 desember 2011

mkg - 27 desember 2011

la piazza - 31 desember 2011

mkg - 05 januari 2012

d'cost - 12 januari 2012

reuni kelas xii - 12 januari 2012

kaastangel

cookies tak berbentuk yang tetap enak :9

pasukan robot aka nastar :p

cookies buat pacar :)

post selanjutnya buat majang foto monyetbudut aah. secara disini uda kebanyakan foto :p

two days before 2012

2011-12-29T11:17:00.000+08:00

2011 almost reach its end, really soon. time does fly way too fast right?

i got much things new that teach me about this life, not that much though. i'm still too young to tell the world that i know all things. :)

i know for sure that i'm growing up. and the bad thing is, the more i feel i'm growing up, the more i know that my father and mother is growing old.

i did have a problem that usually my mother help to solve it. but then, voila. i can do it this year :)

me also learn to hold on. well, it's really hard. honestly speak, i did want to let go all of it this year. just feel too tired to hold on anymore. all of it just like a daily activity with nothing new. sorry to say this, but anger and disappointment, and a little bit tears were dominant during this past few months. somehow i feel like i need fresh air.

last thing i wanna say here, is that everyone changing. my parents, brother, friends, him and me also. the change might bring us closer or further away. right? :)

from all of it, i just want to thank You, dear Lord for everything you gave this past 12 months. it's been great and i got many things new to learn :) cant wait for another experience that You'll give to me :)

what if

2011-12-20T21:54:00.001+08:00

actually i know this song from my church friends back there. i feel like posting it since i know this song but then exams made me feel lazy to make any posts.

what will you do if you know that your partner will die if he/she is being with you?
will you keep him/her? or will you let them go?

a classic answer would be 'let them go, let them feel happiness even you can't feel it'
but then, if you feel that "love" would you let them go willingly?
it'll be super hard for us to do that.
who doesn't want to be with the one we love?
well. for me, the sentence about "let them go for their own happiness without you" sometimes kinda not suit my perception :p

well. if there's come the time, maybe i'll think differently. for now, of course i hope i won't face that kind of situation. i prefer to not know anything and do not have to choose any :p
but yeah i know, life is about choosing and letting some go. :)
just choose the best for our own life and others life ;)

after exams :)

2011-12-19T21:08:00.003+08:00

hello :) long time no see!

i've finished all my exams and now having my holiday here, in my hometown :)

it's soooooo nice to be here. having fun, having a talk with mom and dad, meeting friends, etc and no need to bother about the results until January, 20th :p

i've met him and my friends. also some high school teacher today :) having a look at the school, ah it's been almost two years since i left it. time does fly way too fast.

age always increasing, yet i'm still stuck in my childish behaviour. something wrong, eh?

ayh. not feeling like writing lots today.

i'll post later.

ganbatte!

2011-11-22T23:29:00.001+08:00

this semester gone pretty fast. just left about 2 weeks before my finals .___. all my housemates are already on their HOLIDAY. pity me, right? :(

my finals start at 7 and ends at15december
7th : Financial Management
8th : Malaysian Tax System
13rd : Management Accounting
14th : Banking and Finance
15th : Company Law

such a bad schedule -.- stick stick uahh.
i'm just starting a bit only. should be more serious these following days :) this is a promise to myself ;)

anyways. two days ago i just made my first online purchase :D now waiting for the goods to come! yippie! it's just because the strap of my bags now almost broken. i'll post the photo later :)

another things.. hmm. i've been watching "we got married" of teukso couple. ohmigosh. it's really nice to see them playing piano together. it is superrr sweet! *for me :p* cant wait for more episodes! :))

post again later, after exams? or maybe if i'm feeling bored :p
now the time to focus. since i can go back straight home after the last paper!! :D
ganbatte!

thanks, God

2011-11-14T21:46:00.001+08:00

thank God for giving me an opportunity to meet him. that man, one of my lecturer for this semester.
he opened my mind, broaden it with more wisdom thought :)
nothing to regret. in the end, just me, myself and i who will be thankful for what i've been through now.
i just need to push the very best in me from now on.

p.s : remind me if im down again ;)

things near me

2011-10-29T23:48:00.001+08:00

rain

sun-u residence block A

sunway lagoon view condominium

sunway lagoon, view from my apartment

stop global warming!

2011-10-28T21:13:00.001+08:00

super cool! B)

got it from osi! :p

laziness

2011-10-26T22:57:00.002+08:00

i feel bored bored bored! supersuper boreed! .___. don't feel like doing this assignment but still i have to. how to get the spirit! rawr.

anyway. today i'm having holiday because of Deepavali. Happy Deepavali for those who celebrate it :)
and i went to pyramid. well this sentences always playing around my mind "okay after this i'm gonna do and edit tax assignment then do research for banking and finance" BUT! well. until now, i did.. absolutely NOTHING @,@

well, better revise some lecture than doing nothing. i'll go with tax first then since i'm still confuse in some parts.
but before that. i'm gonna share some picture! :))

another boring lecture .____.

roti telur :9

this morning. bird at the balcony ;)

new perfume!! :D

trying some clothes :p

new water bottle since the old one broken

just an opinion :)

2011-10-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

i just wonder is there anyone else who have the same thoughts with me.

so, there is one girl in my college. she got boyfriend, same course, same class. everything also she never bring herself. well, i'm not sure whether this is the boy wants or not, but still.. hellooo?

can't you bring your own bottle by yourself?

can't you bring your map by yourself?

can't you bring your bag when you're going to the bathroom? okay. this one, your boyfriend can help you to hold IF he doesn't go to the bathroom as well.

i just don't like it. really really don't like it. i don't know why, but i feel it's not good to be like that. i just can't let my boy bring all my stuff like that. sorry to say this, but i found it's not like boyfriend and girlfriend, but more like boss and slave.

anyway. this all just my OWN perspective. you can have your own thought though. i'm not force you all to have same perspective with me :)

P.S : there is one BUT! IF i carry a supersuperheavy things that i can't hold it anymore, then i'll call my boy! :p

photos of the week

2011-10-23T20:43:00.001+08:00

bored at class

fruit satay :9

skype-ing with lauraaa :)

a mid-night tragedy

boyfie's name :)

short-term plan

2011-10-21T10:39:00.003+08:00

a few days ago daddy text me, asked "what's your plan after you graduate?" well. still one and a half year more to go, but yeah i have to think it from now. what's my plan.. actually i plan to work right away after finish this course. then daddy ask, "don't you want to take masters? or any professional degree?" oh well. at first i entered this course, i thought i want to do a professional degree for the accounting. but then, i think i'm more interested in finance. well, MAYBE i want take either masters or CFA, BUT i'm still NOT sure yet. one more thing, i just don't want to let daddy stressed anymore. i just don't want to force him, just let the money for him only. he's not young anymore. i don't want to burden him any longer. when i said, "do you have any savings for me IF i want to do it?" then he just reply, "your grandma has already prepare one house for you. it's for your education." i just stop doing what i did, stare at it and don't know how to reply that one.

anyways, about my decision to get a job in global markets or anything related to investment.. yesterday, i attended a talk about the financial market and this talk like convincing me more after those talk in Bursa Malaysia that i attended few weeks ago. interesting field, but he said it's not just 9 to 5 work, but mostly like 12 hours per day and not just 5 days work. anyway, i'm not scared about that. i know, nothing comes easily :) let's take risk :)

i'll try my best shot to have a good score this semester onwards. so i can apply in great company for my internship next year. wish me luck! ;)

oh geez. daddy just text me again. he said he agree i'm working for ONE year, then he STILL wants me to take either master or any professional degree. so how arr?

need you, mom

2011-10-14T22:27:00.001+08:00

i need mommy :( can't handle it alone :(
well, hard to admit. i'm still a kid. i'm not mature enough for this kind of things.
badbadluck these days :(

e to the nough

2011-10-02T22:20:00.003+08:00

do it like you wish, do it like you want. it's just about you, not about me.
don't blame me if someday i abstain from you.
i'm not that strong enough. i'm tired being like this, feeling like this.
shitty feelings.

time

2011-09-29T22:55:00.001+08:00

almost the end of September. time sure flies so fast. i remember when i was a kid, i always wish to be older, older and older. wants to get lots freedom to do anything. but then, now.. when i'm nineteen i feel like i want to be a kid again. when there's nothing to worry about.

but well, we can't stop the time. time won't wait for us. just try to use our precious time wisely :)

anyway. five weeks passed without him! hmm. maybe it still about two and a half month to go. to meet you again, bacang! :p

cute baby girl

2011-09-25T20:52:00.003+08:00

spending almost whole day doing nonsense. cant concentrate at all. superduper lazy to do this assignment yet i have to discuss this tomorrow +.+

that's why, i watched several, emm not several though, quite a lot video for this day.
and guess what i found? a SUPER CUTE baby girl from korea. her name is park yerin :) omaigosh she's really adorable. i keep smiling while watching her video.

this is one of it.

you can find more, her daddy's youtube account is bobaepapa
watch it and you'll not regret :)
and she also got a facebook page! superwow for her parents. they really love her :) great family :)

me in four years time

2011-09-25T01:04:00.002+08:00

any changes? :)

sigh

2011-09-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

what i said this afternoon, today was such a lovely day right? but now err uncontrollable mood approaching again. it's like, in the morning afternoon you fly high then now you fell down hardly. it sucks. really.

relaxing day

2011-09-23T16:09:00.001+08:00

today i went to security commission at the morning, depart about 8.30 am from university (actually they told that the bus will depart at 8 -.-). then arrive at the security commission, saw a video, had a quiz and also Q&A session. got free food somemore :p i think that is nasi goreng kampung and fried chicken. long time not eating nasi goreng kampung since i left hostel :p

then, we all went bowling. err sad to say, i'm really bad =.= but got improvement laa wehee :p and since both the couple went on their own, we three (me and two other guys) went eat superlatelunch at subway. first time tried subway. what a shame :p quite nice though.

well. already got some refreshment today. so, really have to start the assignment after this. a week due, haven't started anything yet. first time being like this =.=

overall, today was such a lovely day. but not really a lovely lovely day. i still missing something. and.. it's you, boy. i miss ya :(

22 September 2011

2011-09-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

feel like watching piano recital.

21st months! :D

2011-09-17T00:20:00.000+08:00

21 months with you! i'm getting bored! whoops. noo, just kidding :p
i'm happy to be with you and i hope you feel the same :) even we fought a lot, but let us face it together.

some people say, there's nothing such living happily ever after in this world.
but i know, with you, i'll be the happiest girl in this world :)
i've got enough.
just keep your promises :)

love you. love you. and love you.
miss ya so much! :*

P.S : actually we could hang out tomorrow :( so sad i'm here and you're there.

big bro

2011-09-16T01:27:00.001+08:00

tomorrow. big bro will leave jakarta, continue his study. now, i feel kinda sad knowing that i wont meet him for a year? or maybe more. we chat a few hours ago, talked about some thingy. and also our future.

we fought a lot. we tease each other. but we care about each other. and even i'm not that close with him, but well.. i just feel sad now. thinking that after this, we'll be separate. we'll live our own life. maybe not in the same house again.

well. i just wish you best luck for your study :) this is maybe your last chance to make a difference. i know you'll be success :)

anyway. this is my 250th posts. hope this will bring you luck as well :)

true love

2011-09-10T22:51:00.002+08:00

"how much you take care someone you love today?"

:)

2011-09-10T17:26:00.000+08:00

"Carilah pasangan yang enak diajak ngobrol.. Dimana kalo kamu bareng dia, waktu terasa berlalu cepat sekali.. karena, kelak kalo kalian udah tua dan nggak bisa ngapa-ngapain lagi.. kalian cuma bisa ngobrol.." -shitlicious

iseng iseng malam harii

2011-09-03T00:35:00.001+08:00

barusan iseng iseng foto pake kamera laptop :p foto kami ber-empat! :D
tadinya gara gara pake kamera bb susaaah mereka ga kena terus mukanya. ga full :p
jadilah gue iseng! gyahahaha!

pertama.

me and miau! :))

kedua.

me and bumbii! :))

ketiga.

me and babipanda! :))

dan terakhir kami ber-empat! :D

Sunday

2011-08-28T16:46:00.002+08:00

today morning i just went to the church. it's such a big "fight" with myself in this morning. i can't even drag my ass to go to the bathroom. it takes more than an hour since the first alarm rang. yeah i'm such a lazy girl =,= can't open my eyes properly before 10pm. err. bad habit! :x

anyway. today's homily is quite interesting :) i don't know but sometimes, it just related to me, about what i'm searching for. it's about the sacrifice. you need to going through all the bad moments, bad times, suffer from it, then you actually can enjoy the fruits of what you sacrificed. you're not even living in this world if you never want to go through difficult paths. you're just the outsider who watch the activities in this world without feel what it likes. he took an example from the Korean music industry, the boy band and girl band. they can dance like that it's all because they've been trained since young. it's a painful process.
you should suffer for what you wants. maybe that's the point i got today. oh and today, it's not Father Simon who gave the homily, but the visitor Priest from Batu Pahat, Father Laurence if i'm not mistaken. ah.. actually i miss the talk from Father Simon. it's been quite a while i haven't heard it as i'm not going there for about 5weeks.

oh and one more, he shared his experience when he stayed at his friends house. he told us that is a couple, married couple. he thought that couple was living happily together, but actually when he stayed there, the husband and wife talk about what they didn't like about each other. the husband said to him that he was lucky because he is a priest. then the wife complains about the bad habits of her husband. he said that, it's all just because a failure to communicate the problems and they see the problems based on their own view, they don't see it from another. well, all of it could be solved if they talk about it.

one last thing for today. because of Laura's bbm status, i just wonder what it would be like if i pass away. will anyone miss me?

bored to death

2011-08-27T23:02:00.000+08:00

nothing to do.
no one to talk.
well. i just get bored.
bad mood approaching.
stay away.

unhealthy

2011-08-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

well. so here i am again. just arrived yesterday night. or i can say that it was today early early morning, as i reached my place at around 12.10 a.m. and now stuck with this flu :( can't breath. can't smell anything including miau :( sooooo annoying. not a good start. graoo.

also today, i text daddy about my results. yeah, i'm not satisfied with that :( it's not good. i feel like disappointing myself and also my parents. :( couldn't read any text from them. i just don't feel like opening it. i know both of them have suffered a lot in term of paying all the things i needed but i can't make them happy with my results :( but, yeaa.. it's all there, i can't change anything but my future. i need to put a really BIG effort for this. semester. hope i can, yeah.. i know i can. cause i have You, my dear Lord. i know You will lead me :)

hello, jakarta :)

2011-07-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

today exactly is my one week in my hometown. can be so close with my boyfie gives me lots of happiness! yihaaa haha. don't want this holiday to end.
i've done so much fun with my lovely boyfriend and also my friends :D we gone to Waterbom, PIK. then, the rest just hanging out to the mall or a restaurant :p

actually i want to upload some photos from this a week holiday, but all the data is on my laptop :p i didnt bring my pentdrive, yeah so.. no photos until i go back to Malaysia. hehehe.

still got another plan to do for this holiday!! :) can't wait to do that all! XD

19

2011-07-17T08:31:00.002+08:00

hello nineteenth! :)
19 is such a great number for this month anyway ;P
we're both 19, we've been together for 19months. and one more that i really can't wait is another 19th :D

oh oh and today, i proudly present a shared tumblr between us!

rikovelia.tumblr.com

come visit and read what we wrote! we just made it two days ago :p still lack of story. but we promise, we'll post more later ;)

okay. gotta study!
last paper. wish me luck!

anyway, i found some pics that's superb cute!

garfield always makes me remember about him! wonder why ;p

yoyo cici! i'm the panda and he's the PIG! HAHAHAHAHA

cupcakes cupcakes! gimme one!

almost the end!!

2011-07-15T19:21:00.000+08:00

just finished my four papers. still got one more to fight. today's paper is the worst paper ever. grosssssss. why am i majoring in accounting while i stuck most on it?? :( i just hope i can pass that paper. just pass. not score. urgh.

anyway. i'm addicted to tumblr. you know why? i dont want tell you~ HAHA XD

but i still blurr about that things. hopefully can solve it quickly ;)

ah. gotta close my eyes a bit more. still feels sleepy.

ciaoo.

a thought

2011-07-05T09:37:00.001+08:00

gah. so here i am. stuck with financial accounting. and now im feeling a bit bored and hungry!

but but but. before continue studying, i'd like to post something! HAHAHA

based on yesterday "observation" on facebook well yeah i did 'kepo-ing' whenever i'm feeling bored! 'kepo' is my middle name! wahaha. okay back to the topic.

its about a relationship. other couples having great moments during their first month or at their first first time being together. but me and him? wahahahaha. it's not really a good start. maybe because we're not used to it. changing habits from being a good good friend to be a couple is a bit weird :p but well. it's not a big deal though. we've gone through some difficult times and the great things is we still together until now. we've grown stronger than before. right or not, boy? :p

it's not always how well you start doing things, most important thing is improving the things throughout the time :) this not just for relationship. it also applies to STUDYING!! i dont have a GOOD start point now for my lovely dovey financial accounting. but i'll try to do my best for you dear financial accounting :*

gross. how do i manage to relate the relationship thingy with studying? i must be hungry! yeah hungry!!

off to kitchen now! gotta make some food!

follow me? :p

JULY

2011-07-03T00:25:00.000+08:00

not a good start :( i lost my rice cooker, bed sheet, slippers, black short pants, one clothes, several bra and also the most important thing is a T-shirt from him :( its a long long story and i dont wanna write it again. its really urgh. :( i hate it.

anyway. JULY already. sigh. final exam approaching :( have to work really hard. ive tried to. but i got easily distracted with everything :( gotta be more focus!! :):):)


this month to do list :)

unforgettable night :)

2011-06-25T15:25:00.002+08:00

so, yesterday night, instead of joining the whole party of my friends, i chose to go to airport to meet him :)

okay kayanya lebih enak pake indo sekarang haha. jadi, sebenernya itu plan mendadak. sempet sih kepikiran kemaren kemarennya itu buat pergi nemuin si pacarrr. tapi dia nyampe uda malem kan jam 10. jadi yaa gimana juga.

tapi setelah itu, gue berasa kaya pengen pengen pengen banget ketemu dia. i miss him so much already. :( uda gitu sms an terakhir itu sekitar jam 4 waktu malaysia kan, pas gue lagi nungguin bus buat balik apartemen abis ngabisin waktu seharian di perpuss. uda gitu nyampe apartemen sekitar jam setengah 5an ya. uda gitu guling gulingan, nge charge tenagaa, terus kaya mikir mikir. uda gitu ketiduran sekitar 10-15menitan. bangun uda jem setengah 6 kan. yauda mandi, secara mau pergi kan. sebelom mandi gue sms dia, gue nanya gimana kalo gue kesana. uda gitu tinggal mandi, ga ada balesan. ternyata message nya ga deliv =.= dia emang pintar sekali yah. matiin hape dari jam berapaaa :(

jam 6.20an temen gue dateng jemput, terus yang ada di otak gue cuman "is the party place is near kl sentral?" dan ternyata engga. err. agak down sih.

uda gitu nyoba dm dia via twitter. ga ada hasil juga kan. terus minta rena akhirnya coba telpon, emang ga aktif handphone nya. terus minta tolong telponin rumahnya, tapi rena bilang ga ada yang angkat. terus ga lama rena bilang, dia kan uda pindah rumah. grossssss. i feel like banging my head.

uda gitu akhirnya coba message koko nya di facebook. minta nomor handphone cici nya. tapi kayanya koko nya ga liat :(

sepanjang di perjalanan ke tempat makan temennya gue, kayanya gue uda bener bener pengen banget. tapi temen gue yang disini bilang siapa tau dia ga keluar. tapi rena bilang kalo emang gue mau ketemu, ga ada salahnya di coba :) yauda akhirnya gue dateng sebentar, bilang sama si birthday girl, sorry dsb mau gini gitu.

uda gitu jem 8.30, gue pamit kan. mau cari taxi ke lrt station atau langsung direct ke kl sentral. terus satu temen cewe gue nemenin nyari taxi nya :) dia ngusulin gue biar langsung aja ambil taxi ke lcct. cuma itu mahal bangettt dan di dompet gue sisa cuma rm45 kan. belom ambil dari atm. pas gue bilang gitu dia jadi minjemin gue rm30. padahal sebenernya gue ngerasa masi keburu kok ambil bus. hehe. tapi yaudah. akhirnya gue ke kl sentral. disitu bus yang biasa banyak mangkal di bawah, ternyata ga ada. bus nya di atas katanya. gue dikasih tau arahnya, dan setelah gue salah arah gue baru sadar. dia bilang turn left. gue turn right. no wonder lah. but i did manage to put my ass on that 9pm bus! :)

nyampe di lcct sekitar jam 10. liat ke jadwal. crap. delayed. 22.39 ETA nya. yaudah. ke wc dulu pipis dsb, jem 22.15 gue balik liat lagi, ETA nya berubah jadi jam 22.44 =.= yauda deh nungguin duduk di luar, pindah ke dalem. bosen, bbm an, terus nyari es krim ke luar. masuk lagi, bbm an lagi. stress stress an takut ga ketemu. apalagi ngeliat uda landed kan jam 22.44. eh tapi ada sms pacar masukkk jam 23.18 :) i cant describe how happy i am. gue langsung bangun dari duduk, coba telpon. ga bisa! wah panik lagi. coba bbm rena minta telponin, eh xl dia lagi lemot. ga deliv -.- terus gue coba lagi. eh nyambung :) seneeeeng banget :):):) uda deh abis itu anteng duduk di kursi nungguin dia dan cicinya :) dari yang tadinya pusing pusing, jadi akhirnya senyum senyum nungguin dia keluar :)

kayanya ketemu dia sekitar jam 23.30 an gitu. terus langsung gue bilang mau makan. secara makan terakhir gue itu siang. di tempat temen gue tadi gue ga mau mesen makan takut telat. haha. yauda ke mcd. makan makan. duduk duduk. pindah tempat lebih pewe, nyoba tidur tapi ga bisa. sebenernya gatau apa yang gue lakuin. waktu jalan cepet banget rasanya :( tiba tiba uda jam 3, tiba tiba uda jam 5.. pindah tempat gitu jem 6an uda gitu gue sempet tidur beberapa menit. terus uda ga bisa tidur lagi. i just want to see his face actually :) maybe that's the reason why i can stay awake for that long.

dan sangat ga berasa tiba tiba uda jam 8 :( dia bilang mau anterin ke tempat bus dan gue tau sebenernya gue bakal sedih haha. aneh memang. cengeng :( emang uda dari jam 6an uda berasa sedih sih tapi :(

well. akhirnya kita pisah. gue naik bus, dia balik lagi temenin cicinya. setengah 9 bus jalan, kayanya gue bener bener cape. sepanjang jalan, selain sempet nangis, gue tidur pules. pules banget. bangun bangun uda di kl sentral. uda gitu ambil taxi soalnya berasa uda ga kuat deh kalo mesti gonta ganti kereta sama bus. yauda akhirnya sampe apartemen. dan meledak lagi :( ga bisa tidur. masi berasa pengen sama dia. sedih banget gatau kenapa :(

yaa tapi semoga ini karena baru hari pertama aja ya. :)

dan sekarang. sebenernya masih berasa sedih haha. mata uda mulai bengkak lagi err.
sekarang gue masih nunggu kabar dia. apa dia uda nyampe atau belom :) semoga dia kabarin secepetnya ya :)

if you read this post boy, i just want to say that i miss you so much. even we had about 8 hours yesterday night, but it's not enough. really not enough but well. we gonna meet each other again at 19 july :) yaa. mencoba bersabar :) belajar giat juga hehe :)

have a nice holiday :)
i love you, boy.

with his sister :)

"study hard" :)

2011-06-20T22:23:00.003+08:00

okay. kemampuan gue untuk tidur bertambah! gatau harus seneng atau sedih hahaha *ketawa miris*

tadi waktu kelas tutorial AIB, pas isinya lagi palingan cuma 15 orang, bisa bisa nya aja gue tidur. sambil duduk. tidur bangun tidur bangun denger suara si dosen setengah setengah =.= geez. uda kedua kalinya begini. pertama pas lab business stats. huah harus ngerubah pola tidur, or at least harus ngebiasain diri. yaa. harus!

anyway, tadi pagi biasa kan gue nunggu shuttle bus secara lagi males jalan. uda gitu duduk di depan medical centre situ, ada kaya supir gitu duduk di bangku sebelah. gue lagi dengerin ipod sambil baca artikel management kan. dia tiba tiba ngajak ngomong gitu. pertamanya nanya nanya kuliah dimana, ambil apa. gitu gitu. trus yang lucunya dia sempet bilang (kurang lebih),

"love is blind. don't need to think about it now, just focus on your study.

you're pretty, no need to worry. there will be someone who will look for you later on."

wahaha. pagi pagi. ckck. :p terus dia sempet bilang, "now you take a bus, but later on you can get a bmw plus the driver to send you everywhere" yeaaah tos om! wahaha. amin banget deh itu mah! uda gitu pas gue mau naik bus, dia bilang

"STUDY HARD!"

well. that's what i need now.. sedikit semangat haha. gatau kenapa ada mungkinnya juga Dia ngasih orang itu buat ngomong ke gue. yang terpenting buat sekarang emang pendidikan kan. well, uda sekitar dua mingguan ini gue lagi down. ngerasa stuck. 5 subjects are not that easy as i thought before. semangat mulai down. tapi dari omongan 'orang asing' tadi pagi itu, mungkin Dia mau gue ngebangun lagi semangat gue :) true? :)

tadi waktu management lucu loh btw. si dosen ngasih liat foto janin anaknya dulu. katanya anaknya uda mau 1 taon bentar lagi. so sweet banget dia hahaha. jadi pengen punya anak! #loh :p

i think that's all for today :) gotta study again. really have to push myself. and i have to keep reminding myself to study well. if it's not me, who else will do it? :)

my life lately

2011-06-13T23:06:00.004+08:00

just finished my business statistic homework for tomorrow! haha. and also finished watching harry potter 6 :p such a great multi tasking right? :p

hmm anyway. i just want to write. and maybe i'll write about food first! nyehehehe :p
what i ate lately? let's see :p

grilled beef teriyaki and carrot salad!

sausage with cheese and oyster sauce, pochai and scrambled egg!


pecel ayam! (bought)

nishin noodle plus egg, sausage and vegetables

honey garlic chicken and pochai

tempe and tahu! :D

fried rice with scrambled egg and sausage

char kwetiau (bought)

egg sandwich!

rice noodle with beef and vegetables

risol isi bihun dan daging ayam!

manhattan fish and chips! dumbo me i forgot to capture the food x_x

looks nice or not? HAHAHA
yeaah well. that's all still EDIBLE okay! i wanna try cook prawn. but err, i think i'm still not ready for that. no not because i cant cook it. i know i CAN cook it. the problem is i CANT touch it when it is still raw. yucks. haha :p yeaa have to learn to touch it!

ah! and one more! look at the picture below! :D

this is my birthday cake from unimates :) mini mini cupcakes! so yumm and cute! really like it :D

hmm another topic..
ah! you know what! i did one statistic question and guess how long it took to make it right? an hour plus! wonder why? the calculation is so urgh.. and pstt i did it while watching movie :p

looks easy right? but there's lots thing to calculate. and that is the first time i did it, yeah so no wonder i took really long time :p

and. i think i have problems with my concentration lately. its really really hard to make me focus on doing one thing! this is no good! no goooooooooooooooooooooooooood! argh *lebay mode on*

reading the articles.. see? i underline almost the whole part. what am i thinking that time? x(

wondering what to write.. i leave the paper blank for almost an hour x_x

finally! after taking so much time, i did manage to get one and a half page for this question :D

books and papers for this semester x_x

well. guess i just want to post it for today :p
so many pictures! nyahahaha! :D

etc

2011-06-11T18:04:00.000+08:00

>:o

2011-05-31T22:28:00.002+08:00

urgh i'm so pissed off today. i've told her since two weeks ago or more! she still dare to say she CANT make it today! wtf you bitch! what the heck are you doing on mid semester break? going out? EVERYDAY going out! look! you still have LOADS work to do! you still dare to play around??!!

i DIDNOT submit your part for one assignment cause you CANT make it before mid semester break since there is mid test, then it's okay. i'm still patient although i'm STILL doing it at that moment. we have same schedule right? you told me that you'll done your part after the mid semester break, but what?

then now for the other assignment, i HAVE to wait for you! i WANT TO SUBMIT IT to turnitin now! NOW! we just had class until 11.30 today! cmon what did you do this whole day??

i already TAKE YOUR PART for the presentation okay! i've sent the draft since saturday and yet you DIDNOT open it! grrh. please oh please my deary bitch can you work properly?

P.S : i'm so sorry for my bad words today. i dont care what you might think about me. i'm so pissed off now!

disappointed.

2011-05-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

i feel quite disappointed with my business stats mid test :( you know, when the lecturer gave back the paper, am really feel like crying. yeah i really feel i can do lot better than that. at first i thought i will loose lots mark for theory part but i got at least half of the mark for the theories. the one that brings my mark down was the calculation part. the part that i thought i did well. yeah such a pity. it's not because i cant, but because im not careful. really made me down. well, im okay. i just wondering if i set nonsense goal. it just so sad when you had a goal and you can't reach it.

let me down for today.. i promise i'll be okay tomorrow ;)

oh anyway, i love what i ate today :p

the chicken was awesome *for me laah :p* i marinated it with thick teriyaki sauce and also chili powder and salt. i put it on the oven, and i fried the others. both are okay but at night i decided to just put it on the oven. more healthier right? less oil less cholesterol :p

and the other food is tempe and fried tofu! and also the veggie. i forgot what's the name of that veggie :p for that veggie i just boiled it and put some salt. healthy! right? :p i tried to put veggie on my meal nowadays :p

for the rice, i put some butter in it. and it quite well :D

anyone wants this? :p

P.S : this is my 234 posts. not so important! HAHA ;P

abaikan

2011-05-24T22:19:00.002+08:00

numpang teriakkk! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~
sekian.

daddy.

2011-05-14T22:46:00.004+08:00

okay. i really don't know what i feel right now. i just can't describe my feelings haha. just had a little conversation with my dad through msn. i really don't know.. i just want to make him proud but on the other hand i feel really worried, can i make him proud? can i give him lotta happiness? i know he'd given his best for me, and also for my brother. i just.. there's no word can best describe me now. i don't know :(


this is his text several days ago and also today's text. i don't reply it cause i don't have credit at that time..

i know. he really really hope that i'll be better than my brother, he always like that one.. yeaa he always support me, he tried to give the best thing, he's the one who sent me to my course, wait there..

well. maybe i just realized how much he cares for me. how much he will try to give us the best education. i should not hate him for being like that :( that's really my fault. what he done is just for my goodness.

i'll try, dad. i'll try and this is my promise. i'll make both of you happy, mom and dad. and i'll take care of you and mom when you're turning old. just like you and mom taking care of me when i was a child..

sick :&

2011-05-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

two days before my management test i fell sick. i got sore throat and that day i got my first day period :( that was really bad. i felt terrible and feeling like doing nothing. not studying (even at last i force myself to study) and also a bit fasting. just drink a cup of milk on one day, or just ate some bread because i have to eat the drugs. sigh. wonder if i'm at home. mommy will force me to eat.. and if i can't sleep, i can ask mommy to sleep beside me. i'm sure she will do it, like before. :) mommy and even daddy accompanied me sleeping :) feeling so safe and also feel so loved :D

i always feel like a kiddo when i'm sick. i want everyone's attention. actually not everyone, that's enough if i got the attention from the people i love. haha.:p

sore throat is really my enemy. every year should got at least once. too much thoughts, not having enough rest and also eat carelessly. maybe that's the cause haha.

it's been four days, but i'm still coughing. -.-

ah. have to study stats again. mid-term test is on friday. wish me luck! :)

1st may

2011-05-01T22:17:00.001+08:00

so. WELCOME MAY! :)
really an unproductive day =.= since wake up, just cook some rice, then re-heat my tomyam soup, ate that all and watched television. then go back to my room, started to read aib then i feel so bored. since i have to buy some groceries, so i decided to go to pyramid. as usual, i went around round round hahaha. :p

then look at padini concept store, they got discount up to 70%. i went inside, looking things, then suddenly i looked at the wallet. oh i'm so in love with that wallet. perfect yellow! :p considering to buy or not to buy. it took really a LOT time! hahaha. that's me :p always like that when wanting to buy something :p

this is the picture of my new lovely yellowy wallet :D

front look

back look

inside

ah. okay. refreshment is checked. now really time to face my hectic month!
really have to concentrate to study for aib quiz. it just 4 days more! gahh.
lucky i've finished my part for the group assignment. for facebook and parmalat :)
gotta study now!
bye :)

oh. almost forgot to say, happy labour day! :D

P.S : May is the month of the Our Lady. hope i can do rosary novena for this whole month :)

Royal Wedding

2011-04-29T20:08:00.001+08:00

just watched Royal Wedding! haha :p actually at first i don't really interested on that thingy but since everyone talks about it, i just try to see what's that. and yeaah it just a perfect wedding :)

i wanna have a marriage at that kind of place, old church! then, a simple wedding dress. it's just so nice looking at her wedding dress, it is simple yet beautiful. ah and one more thing! i don't want to bun my hair :p it just so old fashion for me. hahahahahaha okay i know it's still a looooooooong time for my time :p

she's just so lucky to get her prince. that's the end of her fairytale. book closed :p for me? the story of my fairytale is still going on. i already have my prince :p but i don't know what it will be in the future. will i close it with happy ending? :) hope so!

P.S : why they call it "royal wedding"?

busstats lecturer!

2011-04-28T23:08:00.001+08:00

"never ever doubt yourself taking this course. this is not an easy course, you'll get Bachelor of Science, not Bachelor of Arts. and also you all majoring in Accounting and Finance, not Accounting with Finance. i know you all struggling with your course now. a lot of things to do, to read and you still have to do some research. you know what? i would dying if i were you guys. remember! what you take now is worth in the next year."

a bit talk from my business stats lecturer this afternoon. i'm not write it all cause some i don't really remember haha. but that's the main that i think will i save it for my memory :) somehow i feel like hearing my father talks whenever he gave a short talk before the lab begins. wonder if they meet each other haha. they both have same perception of study i think. besides that the lecturer is so strict at the first time, he's really good lecturer after i know him for this five weeks. he's not just teach us, he wants us to understand the WHY we learn things. and yeah i should believe i'm here now not for no reason :)

"from now on, never ever ask WHAT. but ask WHY. cause with why you will get the what and how."

- D.O -

25.04.2011

2011-04-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

"welcome to week 5" said my management lecturer with his superb annoying expression. reminds me that in 2 weeks i got his mid-term test. gahh.

next week is May. month of hell for me :(

3 mid-term test which carries mark 20-30%. then 1 quiz for 5%, just 5 but i think it means a lot. then, one assignment due. and another 3 assignments must done within this month cause it has to be pass up on early June, except Business Statistics assignment.

dont know why really cannot make myself focus. there always something that makes me loss my concentration. -.- why oh whyyyyy!

ah anyway. i saw one movie on youtube. found this movie cause saw it on my facebook homepage. then, i watched it and it just great. really :)

P.S : watch it ya boy when you have time! good one :) hope we wont be ended like that! :)

i love you way too much! i dont wanna lose you :)

happy easter :)

2011-04-23T22:27:00.000+08:00

hulaa. i'm back. three days straight went to church. since holy thursday, good friday then today is easter vigil. tomorrow? yeah should be :p

i do like going to the church here. haha. don't know why. everytime i went there, i feel so safe, so comfy :) i know He is there, He wait for me each week :) i'll try to be more diligent to go to church! not just when i had problems! nyehehe :D

oh and one more. for good friday yesterday, it had soooo freaking much kneel-ing! you know, here even though there's no place to kneel, you MUST kneel no matter what unless you're too old to do it. way of the cross has 14 stations. it means, you have to stand kneel stand kneel stand kneel and so on. at first, i just remind myself, it's okay this is not hurt at all. buuut! after 9 or 10 times, i started feel the pain in my knee -.- don't know how many times i kneel during the good friday mass. i just hated it so much when he said "let us kneel". okay, i know i should not complain about this! He felt more pain than me. i should NOT complain for this thingy right? :)

at last,

may His love.. embrace your heart

may His eternal light.. guide your path

may His sacrifice.. strenghten your soul

HAPPY EASTER all :)

P.S : i want to paint the Easter egg!

april :)

2011-04-21T22:26:00.003+08:00

yesterday, i attended the talk about Lancaster University Summer School. I feel like I really want that! going to London, Lancaster and Manchester for THREE weeks! and it costs £ 675. it WORTH right? but yeaa that's exclude the flight tickets -.- my friends said that it would be around RM 2,000 for peak season as the summer class is on July on our semester break. i want i want i want!

but yeaah you know my father. haha. yesterday i text him, then this morning he replied. asked several thingy, then said "if your results for this semester is 60 or above (second upper) for every subject, then i let you go" you such a 'great' daddy, dad! haha. it's tough. but actually second upper is my target :) maybe i won't go this year. cause you know, my results won't come out before may right? in fact the deadline to submit the application is on end of May. so yeaah. i'll prove to him first that i deserve to get this UK opportunity :D

anyhow. if let say i can't go with his money, i'll find my way to go there by my own money :p then bring him and mommy to go with me! yeay! hope that i can fulfill my wish, kay! :) *fingercross*

i just got back from church. yeaah easter will come soon :p today is holy thursday, then good friday tomorrow, the next two days will be easter vigil :)

back to work now! no more procrastinate! *hope so*

miauu

2011-04-19T20:00:00.001+08:00

this is my lovely duffy miauu :3
i have it since.. mm i think since 10-11 years ago. :)
it might be look like a disgusting doll for you all who seen it, but she's my lovely one. no other doll can replace her in my heart *ahiyyy* :p
and look! she's holding message for my boyfie :p

16!

2011-04-17T00:51:00.001+08:00

soo. today is 17th of April! :) 16th months with you, boy! :):):)
soooo many things we spent together. awesome memories. love it whenever i'm with you.
hmm yeaa i can't do anything besides this.
a tiny thingy :p don't get bored, kay :)

eii and one more. do me a favor!
listen MYMP - no ordinary love :)

you brought joy to my world
set me so free
i want you to understand
you're every breath that i breath

happy 16th monniversarie! :)

love love love yaaaa! :*

:)

2011-04-11T21:36:00.002+08:00

dua hari yang lalu papa mama dateng kesini buat dateng ke graduation si koko. kemaren baru ketemu sih tapi haha. seneeng ketemu mereka :) akhirnya koko gendud kuu lulus! hahaha :*

by the way, ngeliat koko graduation gitu, gue jadi mikir, dalam jangka waktu dua taun beberapa bulan lagi, gue yang bakal lulus *amin tepat waktu* gue mau jadi apa yah? dulu iya gue udah yakin sebelom gue masuk jurusan ini. tapi entah setelah sekarang, beberapa omongan lecturer kaya ngebuka pikiran gue lagi, istilahnya mereka buka gembok yang ada di otak gue. harus dipikirin baik baik memang.

this is us :D

dan entaah yaa belakangan gue lagi gloomy banget. bentar bentar sedih :( tadi juga lagi jalan balik, mendung terus ujan, secara lagi bawa buku berat sama belanjaan jadi males buka payung. kadang emang enak kalo lagi banyak pikiran disirem aer ujan :p

belakangan gue juga suka mikir, dulu gue segitu ngebetnya pengen bangetbanget buru buru lepas dari papa mama. tapi makin gue gede, makin gue mikir, gue ga mauu pisah secepet itu. they're always stand there if i need them. :) mereka ga peduli gue lagi kenapa, mereka selalu disana :) walaupun gue nya juga sering nyebelin, sering nyakitin hati mereka tanpa sengaja, tapi mereka tetep support gue terus :)

oh dan satu lagi. tadi lecturer principles of management gue, yang agak sedikit "aneh" tapi emang itulah dia. tadi kelas setengah 10 masuk masuk disuguhin lagu hmm. kaya jazz gitu. enak sih. cuma gue jadi ngantuk lagi -.- hahaha. terus dia juga ada bilang..

"have you ever think why you are here?

it's because you won a lottery of life"

well yeah i agree with him :) i won such a huge lottery for having my life like this.

makin dewasa harus bisa makin baik. ga boleh banyak ngeluh walaupun ini emang sulit banget. susah buat ga ngeluh haha.

p.s : i miss the old of us.. where we can have lots smile and laugh for the whole day :(

just a thought :)

2011-04-03T12:35:00.002+08:00

oke. mau ngerjain tugas belom minat sama sekali. kepala puyeng sudah sedikit terobati sama obat haha. anak ngobat emang gua. jadilah sekarang, secara masih belom ada mood, nyalain leptop, muter muterin detik dan kompas baca baca berita. dan ada satu yang lumayan menarik di kompas. tentang 'perempuan, kerja dan keluarga'. entah yah topik ini selalu menarik minat gue.

read here if you want to :

http://female.kompas.com/read/2011/04/03/10300755/Perempuan.Kerja.dan.Keluarga

tapi gue sih tetep keukeh sama pandangan gue. masi belom ada yang bisa ngubah :p

istri kerja bukan berarti kondisi ekonomi buruk toh. ga bisa lah pertahanin harga diri cowo kerja sendirian buat menuhin kebutuhan rumah tangga sekarang yang serba mahal. yang ada nantinya kalo itu cowo ga sanggup, ga bisa menuhin, malah dia jadi stress frustasi sendiri marah marah deh di rumah. bukannya itu lebih buruk?

dan kalo masalah uda ada anak cewe mesti di rumah, gue masi merasa ga segitunya kok. nyokap kerja, gue sendiri di rumah sama koko dan kita ga ada masalah, yang ada kita ngerti gimana caranya ngerjain semua sendiri. well, emang gue ga terlalu deket sama nyokap beberapa taun yang lalu, mungkin emang garagara gue ga terlalu suka ngomongin masalah gue juga. bukan ga deket sih, cuma jarang cerita cerita. tapi sekarang udah asik kok haha sering cerita cerita, dengerin dia cerita juga. kalo dia pulang, pura pura ikutan duduk di meja makan kalo dia makan, bukan karena laper tapi karena gue cuma pengen ngobrol. haha :p

guess what. i'm like this now is because of them, my parents.

gue tau kalo bokap gue ga kaya gitu, ngomongnya ga nyakitin, gue ga bakal gini kok. justru karena dia ngomong nyakitin dan kadang bikin down, itu yang bikin gue semangat :) kebawelannya dia, keseriusan dia dalam nyariin gue sekolah, itu juga yang nyemangatin gue, ngingetin gue kalo pendidikan itu penting! :) gue tau dia sering marah kalo gue pergi pergi kenapa. dulu emang gue ga bisa terima, di saat banyak temen yang bisa enak aja pergi kemanamana tiap minggu jalan jalan, tapi gue sering ga dikasih. well, sekarang udah tau kok. udah tau diri. udah bisa ngertiin hehe. thanks to him for making me like this :) i know i become stronger because of him.

dan mama. walopun dia kerja, dari dulu gue kecil dia pasti nyempetin telpon ke rumah siang siang buat mastiin gue sama koko baebae aja. and i learned really a LOT from her :) she's maybe not the best mom over the world, but i'm sure to say that she's the best mom for me :)

im so happy to have them as my parents :)

and i promise i'll make them proud of me! i really want to see their big big big smile when they see my achievement :)

okay. stop dreaming! back to reality!

gotta study now to reach that dream!

aja aja hwaitiiing! :D

third semester

2011-03-31T17:17:00.001+08:00

okay. i done all the lecture for my five subjects this week today. then, im pretty sure that this semester will be tough -.- needs lots lots reading! :( then, all the lecturer also already give the assignments. gah. so, guess my life for this 14weeks plus gonna be fully like nerd. hopefully not only look like "nerd" but act like "nerd" done. sleep, eat and study -.- as my business statistics said.

oh anyway. none of the lecturer is as funny as my business law lecturer :( lemme talk a bit about this to kill my boredom, kay?

first, principle and practical of management. hmm, he's quite good. but a little bit weird -.- keep on laughing on his own joke. then he also showed his wedding picture and his family picture. besides of that, i think he's quite okay on explaining things. oh and one more, he gave really lots of articles. hopefully i can understand all of that *fingercross*

second, hmm. let's see. tuesday class is.. oh! yeaah him. business statistics lecturer -.- gosh. he damn strict and somehow made my scared for this subjects. everyone don't even dare to speak a word with him. then, you know while having lab with him today he said, "you know why i talk to you loudly? cause im deaf. speak with me like the way i speak to you all." cmon, who wants to speak if you act like that? the atmosphere for this class is a real serious one -.-

then, foundation of business. oh this indian -.- i dont really like him. im sorry, i dont mean to be racist but come on. he's really smelly! then, the lecture was sooo damn boring! guess not only me who think like this loo. dont really like the way he taught. but i must cope with this condition, right? *sigh*

what else yaa? yesterday was.. financial accounting. ermm. my previous tutor for principles of accounting, but last time she didnt teach until the end of the semester because she had to give birth. im quite ya ya la for her haha since i know i have to be serious on her subject. i just dont like the way she speaks, her voice is.. ermm. shrill -.- really! haha. oh oh but what i loveeeeee most is i have foreign lecturer ahiyy :p quite okay loo his face! :):):) but unfortunately will be just seeing him one hour per week -.-

last one is accountant in business. the lecturer has really soft voice -.- thank God today i sit in front. but every time she walk to the back, i just cant really hear what she said -.- anyway. this also important subject for me. cause use the same book with acca. guess this is really useful to get my exemption :)

gonna be a tiring 14 weeks -.- but hey. i can do this! don't you think so? :p

hmm. just that. haha. feel so bored and producing this boring story :p

gotta take bath! then rest for a while. then maybe.. hmm. eat at least two subjects today!

see ya! :)

quote :)

2011-03-28T21:06:00.000+08:00

Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss. - Unknown

semangat! :)

2011-03-24T15:42:00.002+08:00

uda hari kamis aja yah. ga berasa minggu balik lagi ke malay :( gatau kenapa selalu berasa sedih yah sekarang. agak lain sama waktu pertama kali pergi kesana. sekarang.. entah kenapa berasa sulit.

entah udah berapa kali gue nyoba ngasih tau diri sendiri, elu uda beruntung bisa kuliah. apalagi bisa ke luar juga. gausa sedih sedih. selesein apa yang uda lo mulai. tapi tetep.. susah. banget. sorry for being #galau

well. once again i must remind myself. this is what i choose, this is what i want, this is what i asked for. i MUST be responsible for all this things. two and half years more :)

anyway! i really hate my timetable! gahh. +.+

belom lagi tar kelas tutorialnyaa groarrr. harus semangaaaat!

5 subjects! i'll eat you all! kraukkk!

:)

2011-03-18T12:29:00.001+08:00

extremely happy yesterday! :D

kemaren bikinin lunch buat dia :p satuu roti goreng isi sosis bumbu teriyakii, carbonara fettucini sama puding karamel. well.. ga terlalu parah sih harusnya hasilnya haha. cuma puding karamel nyaa errr ga jadii -.- karamelnya meleleh kaan. harusnya tunggu dingin baru gue balik itu puding x_x tar fotonya di bawah yaaaah.

abis ituu jalan deh sama dia hehehe :p waktu emang cepet banget yah jalannya kalo lagi seneng seneng :( ga banyak ngapangapain cuma muter muter ga jelas tapi tetep seneeng XD dont you think so? :p

well. uda tinggal 9 hari lagi gue di indo :( kadang entah kenapa merasa agak sedikit nyesel kuliah ke luar.. tapi emang sih ga boleh mikir gitu. uda bagus gue dikasih kesempatan buat kuliah di luar.. yaa sekali lagi emang harus nguatin diri sendiri. yakinin diri kalo semua nantinya bakal jadi baikbaik aja. ini semua uda jalanNya buat gue :) siapa lagi kan yang bisa bikin gue semangat buat kuliah selain diri gue sendiri? ;) harus kuat!

roti isi sosis! :D

carbonara fetucinni
-akhirnya malah bikin enek garagara kebanyakan keju ;P-

puding karamel!
harusnya ada karamelnyaa di atas cuma.. garagara kecepetan nguarinnya jadi begitu deh :(

08march2011

2011-03-08T19:18:00.000+08:00

okee sedang bersiap kembali ke habitat tapiii sayangnya pesawat delay. graaaaaaaaa! setengah jem sih cumaa ergh malesin deh. untung kemaren download bounty hunter nya uda selesaai :D tapi sekarang nonton berisiik bentar bentar pengumuman -.- uda tau ga ada subtitle nyaaa. tante tante di belakang ngoceh teruus pula. menyerah ga nonton lagi dehhh.

tadi juga dapet supir taksi bawell banget. ngomooong mulu sepanjang jalan. untung ga lama gue naek tuh taksii. ganti ke ktm (kereta tanah malaysia). pertama kalinya naek kereta tanah bahaha. ngeliat bentuk rupa dari luar jelek buluk. untung dalemnya ga parah parah banget. uda gitu tadi di kl sentral pas mao naek skybus nya air asia ga liat liat ke depan. jadi ke belakang ke bus kuning itu yang koko blg ga boleh. dikejer kejer deh. menyeramkaan -.-

anyway kemaren gue nonton crazy little things called love. so sweet bangeeeet ceritanyaaa. ga tahan pengen nonton lagiii :D recommended movie banget deh!

uda ah uda mau boarding!

cao!

same? :p

2011-03-05T16:13:00.000+08:00

do you want the same? :)

image source : http://www.happymonsters.tumblr.com

mari belajaaaaaaar!

2011-03-03T09:42:00.002+08:00

tadi subuh bener bener deh ga bangeeet. kebangun garagara those freaking thunder and lightning :( gatau kenapa yah gue takut banget sama gituan? di indo biasa kalo uda gitu tinggal tereak manggil mama, kalo mama ga dateng dateng tinggal samperin ke kamarnya uda gitu minta ditemenin tidur. tapi sekarang.. :'(

yaah tapi emang harus belajar deh. thunder and lightning cuma gitu doang kook takut apaa. ya kan? :)

anyway. uda H-4 menuju final exam dan guee.. masi belom niat serius belajarrrr. kraukkkk! mari belajar deeh~

fourteen

2011-02-17T00:37:00.004+08:00

i'm gonna tell you something today.
i wish someday i could treat you like how i treat my lovely bulky doll :)
i want to find you whenever the condition.

okay this seems to be a little bit weird but somehow this is what i do with miau :p all of these thing is my imagination though.

when i'm happy, i could share the happiness with ‘it’.
when i'm down, i could talk to ‘it’ and do whatever i want.
when i'm about to cry, i can put ‘it’ in front of me and imagine that ‘it’ smile at me, hug me and "stop" this tears before it falls.
when i'm cry, ‘it’ just sit there and i take ‘it’ to hug me warmly.
when i'm angry, ‘it’ can just listen to whatever i talk. i don't need anything. i just need ‘it’ by my side.
when i'm crazy, ‘it’ just see my craziness and smile at me.
when i'm upset, ‘it’ will be there, look at me and say that "everything's gonna be alright"
when i'm tired, i just want to have ‘it’s hug and ‘it’ can make me fall asleep with ‘it’ by my side.

i just wish i can make you like that way.
i want you to be my forever "lovely bulky doll"
and you know what makes you win from my lovely bulky doll?
‘it’ cant answer me. just me pretend to be her. talk the positive thing. i just like having two personality when i look at it :p
but you can talk.

so, i guess you already have one "power"

do you want to become like it and give all of those things?
the answer is on you.

happy fourteenth months, bigboy!

i love you even more :)

February, 14th

2011-02-14T14:09:00.004+08:00

Valentine is just a tradition, right?
we don't have to wait until valentine's come to give some sweetness to our partner

and now..
i just wanna say that
i don't need any chocolate
i don't need any roses
i don't need any other gifts
i don't need all of that on this valentine.
because of what?
i feel that it's not really a big matter to get a gift on valentine

everyday is my valentine cause I have you in my life.
you're already become my valentine each and every day without any chocolate, roses or gift

i just want to have some conversation everyday
tell me that you miss me.
tell me that you really love me.
that's really enough.
i just want you.
give me the whole part of you.
not just some part of you.

HAPPY VALENTINE

P.S : be my valentine. but of course not only for today. but be my valentine for my lifetime. :)

:(

2011-02-12T13:21:00.000+08:00

i dont know why im feeling like this :( just two days but..

cartoon

2011-02-10T20:33:00.006+08:00

for me :
miau don't hug back, but sometimes it is all i have.

Quote

2011-02-09T13:44:00.002+08:00

Relationship is like a work. Both of you have to work on it to make it great.

will us?

2011-02-05T20:21:00.002+08:00

jadii tadi lagi iseng isengg corat coreet. daaan haha :p gambar gejee.
gatauu belakangan ini kadang suka mikir.
will me and you end in the same way like the red line that we'll meet at the end or we'll just walk on our own way like the green line and won't meet at the end.

CNY

2011-02-02T17:26:00.002+08:00

okee besok Chinese New Year dan saya masih terdampar disini. CNY pertama ga bareng keluargaa. tapi sudahlah pulang juga ga mungkin ada banyak hal yang dikerjain. belom 100 hari juga. kuku kuku uda ga dateng, ga serame taon taon sebelomnya.

makin taon makin ga berasa excitement nyaa. ilang rasanya haha. wonder why..

anyway.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
hello, rabbit! :)

end of january

2011-01-31T21:49:00.004+08:00

so. today already january 31st. time flies really fast yaa this year. don't you feel so? just wanna have some things to write down today.

my subject this semester is totally fun fun although there will be a lot of presentation. still don't like doing presentation -_- and what's more annoying is we should wear formal suit. formal? oh gosh. i dont have any shirt and skirt or pants or whatever it is.

but then, this subject and the lecturer was great :) she had lots fun story to share and sometimes she provide videos or cartoon that can boost our mood whenever we all feeling tired of the lessons. she surely a great lecturer :)

anyway. i don't know why my appetite is sooooo damn big these three days. i can eat really a lot in one day. i decrease the amount of the rice i cooked, but.. at the end i eat another thing -.- i like if i gain one or two kg more, buuuut i don't want this "samchan" tummy :(

hmm what's more? i think i want to continue what i've written last week. about that "missing" feelings. :p

it's really hurt when you want to say a thing but you just can't say it. there's too many 'but' in your mind and in the end you choose to pretend that there's nothing wrong, everything is okay and so on. but i'll try to say whatever i want from now on.

maybe the part why i feel those feeling last week just because i feel there 'a little thing' missing from you. i just try to adapt with the situation but you feel uncomfortable and yeaah not only you who feel that. i know that it hurts both of us. but everything's okay right now, right? :)

oh yeaah one thing more. i feel so hurt when you say "you'll be regret if i leave you, you know!" you know what i wanna say that time? "just leave me. i know i'll be down. really down. but i know i can survive. i know i can get up again. you just not for me and i just not the best for you."

2011-01-25T21:40:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wish i could say everything..

:)

2011-01-21T10:45:00.004+08:00

i feel that im changing a bit. feel like there's something wrong actually. but i also don't really know what's that. well yeaah let's just forget it. maybe im just thinking too much recently.

it's been six day since i here :) im not crying anymore since i here :D not like the first time i came here :p this new place is nice. comfy :) what i hate about this place is just i have to walk for around 10-15 minutes to reach my univ :( *exercise vel!*
and now i really can learn how to be a good "housewife" haha :p doing everything by myself. but hey.. i don't really mean "housewife" who'll stay all day in house okay. i'll be a housewife but not full-time! :p

ah gotta go now or else i'll be rushing.
bye :)
see you soon bloggie!

back again

2011-01-15T22:05:00.002+08:00

so here i am again today. back to malaysia :(
masih pengen banget di indo sebenernya walopun gada yang dikerjain juga. tapii emang di rumah berasa lebih tenang.
dua hari sebelom pergi gue jadi biru. biru sebiru birunya. haha. sampe kemaren jumat waktu ketemu lau dia sampe bilang mata gue ga banget.
yaa tapi ini udah pilihan. harus selesain sampe abis! :)

2010 mémoires

2010-12-30T20:13:00.002+08:00

well. 2010 hampir berakhir. lot things happened this year.

dimulai dari awal taon yang bareng bareng tementemeen. bangun bangun ketemu merekaa, ngabisin countdown bareng mereka jugaa, nonton kungfu panda di pagi hari. pengalaman 3 hari 2 malem di bandung lembang yang ga bakal kelupa :)

uda gituu status guee yang setaon ini ga single karena 14 hari sebelom 2009 berakhir datang si babibum :p jaimjaiman, diemdieman, ketawaketawa, isengisengan, mainmainbareng, ngobrol ngalor ngidul, pegi gereja bareng, nonton bareng, makan, sampe mesti ninggalin kamuu kemaren agustus jadi kita pacaran lewat skype sama bbm juga ;)

then, sibuk sibuknya belajar buat try out try out. ngeles ke triple y. ngeles sama opa :( uh kangen opa :( i did cry after my last session with him. belajar bareng rena juga. sempet belajar bareng di rumahnya sama cipp plus fka :p belajar apa bikin heboh rumah rena yah tapi? sampe mamipapi rena nanya ke rena kita kita ngapain aja ;)

foto yearbook yang ga bakal kelupa juga :D tidur cuma satu jeman gara gara ga bisa tidur. dijemput jam 3 pagi. pergi dandan sama cewe cewe kelas. uda gitu ke pik jem 6 pagii. did photo session there. abis selesai gitu pergi makan di the buffet dan entah perut gue yang ngaco ato gimana sampe besok paginya guee mencret mencret. dan ternyata liat di twitter ada juga yang gituu.

ngelewatin ujian nasional, ujian praktek, ujian sekolah yang ga terlalu berasa banget.

farewell party without him. then graduation day also without him.

libur yang panjaaang. masi nentuin universitas mana. ngeles ielts sama mr. roy :) 3 times a week.

pergi ke ragunan, naik transjakarta :) ketemu monyet monyet gorilla jerapaaah dan kawankawannya :D

temanteman yang dateeng ke rumah niat ngasih surprise di pagi hari tapi gue nya uda keburu bangun :) disuruh mecahin balon balon. hoho niat emang kalian niupin balon balonnya :p

uda gituu sehari sebelon pergi ke malay jalan sama si bimbuum. ketemu fka cipp lauu dan mereka ngasih bath set doraemon :D:D:D

kuliah di malay. pertama kalinya ngerasain pusing nya stress nya cape nya belajar. takutnya di hari hari pertama gue. sedih ga ada yang nemenin waktu sakiit. feel lonely. ngerjain assignments. ngejar due date. belajar buat exam yang bikin senewen. pergi makan sama temen temen disana. and had a great time after last exam :)

my grandma passed away this year and im feeling so sad as i cant see her for the last time :(

balik ke indo lagi main main. ketemu mamapapa :) bikinin kue soes buat si buum :p jalanjalan nemenin fka ke kampusnyaa. went to kafe strawberry and had a little accident after that :(
my first anniversary with him :D accidentally met laura on the church at christmas eve. then got surprise at christmas :)

dan sekarang lagi menyadari dua minggu lagi gue harus balik lagi ke malay. :( yaa tapi ambil positifnya aja deh :) belajar mandiri disana :D

still got no specific resolution for 2011. but already had some rough plan.

anyway. im going to lampung tomorrow. :)

JAKARTA!

2010-12-15T21:09:00.005+08:00

been here since last saturday :) so glad to be home again. i'll be here until 15th january :D
anyway. dont know why but im feeling so happy today :D
just two more days, boy! :D
and you know? im falling deeper and deeper for you :)

after exam

2010-12-09T11:07:00.003+08:00

im done with my exam yesterday. actually i feel kinda scared about the result :(
but yaah. lets forget it for a moment.

so. after the last exam yesterday, ten of us went to sunway pyramid. actually the reason was to "celebrate" one of my friend's birthday which was about two weeks ago. we went to fullhouse. basically i love the concept of this cafe :) so nice! and luckily yesterday we got set lunch (soup, main course, dessert and ice lemon tea) :p cheaper! we spent about two and half hour or maybe three? dont know haha.

then, five of them decided to back home. just left five of us then first, we checked the movie, rapunzel! but that was really crowded. :( then, we went to bowling area, but there's a competition there and we cant play. so, at last they played billiard. oh gosh how i hate this game. i really cant play haha. so embarrassing. even i told them i give up but they still force me to try and have a confidence that i can play this game (?)

the first and last time i played billiard was about two three years ago. and i know that i dont want to play it again. im so frustrated to play that one, cannot use the stick loor T.T in the end i just take the ball and put it on the hole. as simple like that. why should take it hard to use the stick? take a long time.

we play play play about two three hours. and we also play the board game, like football one. i dont know whats the name actually haha :p but that much easier than billiard. trust me i wont ever play that again.

feel superb tired yet got lots fun :)

anyway, i love the fact that i'll be home soon :D

mixed!

2010-12-03T00:55:00.003+08:00

three papers down. i'll try my best even i kinda think that i should do better than that. but yeaah forget it. two papers to go then i'm free! ah really waiting for 8th december!
i have to study now but. errr.. don't know why i'm so lazy! :(
have to force myself to study or else i will feel regret later! fighting!

anyway. i'm really sorry for the previous post. i'm not in the good mood when i wrote that. yet i think i won't delete it. :) just for reminder. not the other reason.

and one more.
happy nineteenth birthday, dearest feliciakarta! :)
wish all the best for your education, family and also.. wish you can find someone great this year!
im sorry i cant be there to celebrate your birthday actual birth date. maybe this will continue happens for 3 or 4 years. but i promise you, i will be there if i have finished everything here :)
once again
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you. my six years bestbestfriends :p
love you! xoxo

do you remember when we used to have a conference call each time one of us have birthday? i miss that moment.

sorry

2010-11-27T11:01:00.006+08:00

sorry if i made two post for today. but i think i must write this to let myself be more relax.

sometimes i hate myself to act like that. but i just want your understanding, have you?
you know since that day, the night you called me. i just want to have a joke, i just want to refresh my mind. but what? you take it seriously. then, the next or next two days, it happened again.

had i been like that? i think every time you got exam, i never let you down. what made you down just your mind. thinking me would be like this and that.
why i dont want to talk you right after our fight? because you and me both not have good condition. how many times i told you not to force me to answer?
then why i dont like to talk much? it's all because im tired. every single word i said, you always had the arguments back. it's better if i just listen to you and save my feelings for myself. wait for some times and i try to let it go.
i know ive been hurt you damn much. you always stay there even though i act like that. thanks for reminding me every time we had a fight and made me feel more guilty.

im sorry for these days. im really stressed and freaked out for my exam. you know i got a big pressure, both from me and my dad. and also my grandma told me to do so.
and.. maybe you're right my heart was missing..
one more. i think now i hate you *and you hate me too, right?* , sorry. yet i cant hide that i still love you. dont know why..

zai jian, popo..

2010-11-27T10:54:00.004+08:00

yesterday afternoon i got bad news. my grandma passed away. im really shocked when i read the text. i know im not a good grandchild. im lazy to go to visit her, im not often talk to her, i dont want if she asked me to stay over there.. im really sorry i havent do good things for you. hope you'll feel more happiness out there. there where you can chat with your husband and friends.

ah and yesterday my father told me that each week my father went there, she asked about me and my brother. and what her message is for us to study well. yes, i will. dont worry, popo. and im sorry i cant see you for the last time.. im starting my exam on monday straight to wednesday..

rush rush

2010-11-22T01:59:00.001+08:00

its already 2.00 am here and i dont feel sleepy at all.
panic and stressed now :(
not much time left. have to really fight for this exam!
second upper second upper second upper! yes i CAN! :)

1+1 = 11

2010-11-17T11:58:00.006+08:00

dedicated for you, monster :p

it has been almost 14 weeks since i left indo. since the last i met you. you know, at first i dont feel like i'll be missing you so bad like this. i just try to think that im here because i have one strong reason. i have to be an independent woman who can makes my parents proud of me. but, day by day im here.. feels like someday, err not someday but everyday, i miss your existence..

i miss the moment when we hang out together
i miss the moment when we watch movie together
i miss the moment when you come to my house and we play together
i miss the moment when we go to the church together

i miss holding your hands
i miss the feeling when you hug me
i miss your kiss
i miss your presence, boy.

long distance relationship is not an easy things right? it's really tough. but thanks you still want to be with me whenever and whatever the conditions :) i know i hurt you much boy. i really appreciate for your patience.

trust and communication is the key for this relationship, right?
so.. i'll try to always trust you. i'll try to always communicate with you. and do the same thing for me, okay? :)

wait for me. and i'll wait for you until you finish your study.
i'll wait until the time we can always be together.

Distance is the key to love's eternity.

love you so, boy
happy eleven months :)
miss you so freaking bad.

The LDR coupe are stronger, more patient,
and respect the appearance of each other.

anyway. this is some "silly" things that i make for you *again* dont get bored yaa :p

and this one i just make this two days ago before i slept :p

P.S : love you more and more everyday :p

raining -> new umbrella

2010-11-16T21:25:00.003+08:00

i just bought one transparent yellow polka-dot umbrella :D so happy!

jadii ceritanya kenapa gue bisa beli itu payung ucul gara gara hari ini gue mau pegii ke ridzuan condo mau liat room tapi ternyata oh ternyata hujan. deras. petir menyambar nyambar. oke gue ga lebai yah emang gitu keadaannya. dan gue dan si cowo itu ikut temen ke pyramid kan. mau jalan ke tempatnya tapi ujan. payung lagi gue pinjemin ke temen gara gara kemaren abis pulang dari makan makan si birthday boy itu ujan dan gue pikiiir gue ga terlalu butuh kan. shuttle bus nya berenti tepat di depan condo gue.

oke balik ke hari ini. secara ga enak kan uda minta ditemenin kesana gue bikin dia ga bisa pulang cepet yauda gue beli tuh payung di daiso. dia ngeliat, terus bilang "doesnt it too small?" trus gue bilang "look at my size! haha"
then abis gue beli, dia ngeliatin ajaa tuh payung. trus gue bilang, "why? this is nice, right?"
"yea. suit for small girl. that looks like kids umbrella"
=.="

my new umbrella XD

ga nyesel lah beli payung itu. ucul kok! ga terlalu mahal juga :p

count down

2010-11-14T23:24:00.003+08:00

FOUR WEEKS MORE, MONSTER! :D

flashback memories

2010-11-13T00:24:00.003+08:00

just now i look at some facebook's photo. because of fishy comment on one of the photos during our high school. then i end up looking for the photos that is taken that time.
kinda miss those situation. when there is 31 people on the class. chit chat, make a noise, stress together and lots more. i miss everything i did in high school. especially live in. :(

a photo can brings back a lot of memories.
but cannot bring us back to the moment the photos was taken.
all we can do now is just look at the photos and smile or laugh while recall the memories inside.
cause we cannot back into that time.
there is no time machine in real life.

i wish there is one real doraemon in this life for me.
i just want have the "pintu kemana saja". just that. really.
cause i need that to back home.
meet my parents, my friends, and especially my boy.

unfortunately it just a dream. a dream that never ever be true.

a year ago

2010-11-09T20:37:00.003+08:00

satu taun yang lalu jam seginii sepertinya baru selesai makan malem bareng rena silvie dii apa yeh nama tempatnya. ah lupaa. di suatu tempat pokonyaa. siang tadii abis jalan jalan ke borobudur abis tadi pagi pamitan sama si bapak ibu di cuntel. bentar lagi harusnya muter muter di tempat nginep ituu. ngobrol ngobrool. dan si riko tuing muncul haha. sendal jepit biruu. uahh i miss those moments. pengeeen deh balik live in lagii ngerasain tidur di bus, nonton dvd sepanjang perjalanan, ngerasain ga megang hapee 3 harian dan ga merasa ada yang hilang..

tapi sayang waktu ga pernah bisa muter ke belakang lagii..
kalo satu taun yang lalu di jam segini lagi asik asik main, di taun ini saat inii gue lagi mencoba nyicil buat final exam. tapi lagi belajaar, inget taun lalu jadi pengen nulis ini haha. emang ga pernah bisa konsen yah belajarnya..

tapi bulan depan di tanggal ini harusnya gue uda selesai exam. pergi refreshing dan menanti dua hari lagi buat balik ke jakarta :)
so before next month coming, i gotta prepare myself and try to do my best for this first final exam in college :)

start now or regret!

2010-11-03T19:26:00.003+08:00

final exam in less than four weeks. huaaah saya pusing!
baru lumayan terbebas dari jeratan assignment gara gara ngebut semuanyaa. sekarang mesti start belajaar ga mo tauu! tapi susah :( aah tapi ga mo tauu laah minggu ini minimal baca si ais dulu. kalo ga business law apa yah. hmm pilihan sulit. jadwalnya jelek sih tuh ujian =,="

29nov - english for business and management studies
30nov - AIS
31nov - business law
6dec - principle of accounting
8dec - introductory to economics

tiga yang pertama sih ngajak ribut loh. gatau gimana cara belajarnyaa huaaa. masa abis AIS mesti langsung nelen bulat bulat menghafal mati mati semua case sih? graaaa. tapi harus bisa bisa bisa! gamo tau target mesti tercapai!!

p.s : anyway. kalo beneran gue balik 10desembeer.. it means 1 month 1 week and 1 day more until we meet again boy! :D:D

whatever

2010-10-23T19:33:00.002+08:00

sakit itu bener bener ga enak yahh. apalagi sendiri. uhh worst. pusing pusing sendiri. panas bobo sendiri. obat suka suka hatii. hahaha. emang agak gila sih kemaren gue makan obatnya. bener bener semaumau guee. batuk ambil itu pusing ambil ini pilek ambil ono vitamin ambil jugaa. bisa jadi dokter guee :p yaa ambil positifnya ajaa gue masih idup sampe sekarang ga overdosis. dan uda ga parah jugaa tinggal sedikit batukbatuk. syalala~

tapi kemaren pas sakiit, jadi kangeen sama mamaa. really need my mommy. bisa minta dimasakin bubuur kalo ga nasi tim :'( kemaren mo makan bubur aja susah. nyari sendiri ke mcd. uda susah susaah ternyata buburnya ga enaaak :( kangen papa juga siiih biasa kalo sakit kan yang nganterin ke dokter si papaa. huah.

let me go homeeeee! *cry out loud*

TEN!

2010-10-17T13:42:00.004+08:00

it's ten for me and you :) you want me to put those silly things up here right? well as you wish, i put this for you.

but i wont put the letter here. that just for you only boy :)
love you so :*

i'm really falling for you

exhausted :(

2010-10-12T23:17:00.003+08:00

i'm stressed. exhausted! :( not having enough sleep every night.
assignment done and come --" one finish, the other one waiting. then, in the next two and three days i gotta have mid-term exams. econs i think not a big problem. but AIS? graaaaaaooo. i hate AIS damn much. ah no no! i don't hate you my lovely sweetie AIS. just be nice and make me feel happier to study and understand you. could you? be nice!! please please please!!

uh should back to study :(
AIS here i come! :)

edit!

2010-10-11T21:29:00.003+08:00

this image is dedicated for you, my boy. :p

p.s : been 51days without you somehow i feel there's something missing

\(o)/

2010-09-28T20:29:00.003+08:00

stuck doing my assignment :( just open the microsoft word. starring at that blank page. write a sentence and erase it. write again and erase it again. sucks.

well. next week i got term-break. but not a break at all. too many assignment. and after the term-break, there's a mid-term test. gosh. but i think after october, it'll be better. all assignment except business law and econs *maybe* will be done at that time. no more assignment. just focus on final exam..

sometimes i do need someone to push me, encourage me when i'm down. but yeaah.. i think i should learn how to push and encourage me by myself.
whenever i feel tired, i try to remember what's my goal in front, it makes me awake again. try to study harder, do better, so i can finish this course in three years and of course at least second upper :)

i can because i think i can

p.s : i miss my room. i miss my piano. i miss my mom's meal. i miss my annoying father. i miss my friends. and i miss you, boy.

a month

2010-09-15T23:33:00.004+08:00

a month without mom and dad
a month without close friends
a month without him

ga berasa uda sebulan disini.
semua serba baruu. uda adapt sih sama lingkungan sini. temen di kampus juga uda ada. yang masalah cuma assignment doang. grrr. ga ada abisnya. pusing! tapi harus bisaa. harus bisaa. ga mungkin gue ga bisa nyelesein semua! :)

anyway. beberapa hari yang lalu, entah otak gue ngaco atau gimana gue gatau deh. yang pasti abis pulang kuliah, uda jem setenga 6 lebih, trus kan gue naek lift, pas lagi sendiri di dalem. mencet angka 19 dong. sambil nyendeer di lift nya, ngeliatin hapee. terus pas pintunya kebuka, ada orang mau masuk, gue maen keluar aja, gue pikir itu emang lantai guee. secara semua lantai designnya sama gitu. terus pas banget pintu yang gue pikir pintu menuju apartemen gue itu kebuka, cuma ditahan pake sendal. masuk. lepas sendal. berasa sih ada yang aneh. kok kayanya kosong. uda gitu lebih rapi dikit. gue pikir itu kan diberesin sama cleaning service nya. masuk masuk mau ke kamar, ada satu pintu kebuka. gue ngeliat, ada cewe lagi tiduran. dan gue yakin itu bukan temen satu apartemen gue. langsung gue keluar. pake sendal buru buru. ngeliat gue di lantai berapa. ternyata oh ternyata, gue di lantai 18. kutuu. maluuuu banget dah. bisa bisa nyaaa guee ga ngeliat itu kamar nomer berapaa. huahh. ga lagi lagii!

oh satu hal lagi. gue suka keki kalo lagi lecture business law. gatau kenapa uda dua kali gue duduk persis di belakang pasangan. dua pasangan sekaligus per lecture di depan muka gue. kampretos emang. mau konsen sama omongan dosen kocak jadi agak susah. kebawa ngeliat "movie" yang ditayangin di depan muka gue. suap suapan cemilan lah, sender senderan, gandengan tangan, elus elus, rangkulan. badak! pengen gue tendang rasanya.
padahal dosen business law itu kocak dan asik. gara gara ada pemandangan tak sedap itu bkin gue susah konsen. gue duduk udah di baris ke 4 dari depan lohh by the way..

ah gotta study again.
sayonara~

new chapter! :)

2010-08-25T19:54:00.002+08:00

starting a new chapter. kuliah ga sesantai dan semenyenangkan yang gue pikir haha.
my first day was like a hell. ga kenal siapa siapa. sempet ngerasa salah masuk kelas padahal engga. makan siang sendirian pula. tapii untungnya hari kedua uda ada kenal orang. sampe hari keempat ketemu temen di kelas tutorial :)
dan hari ini, hari kee.. hmm. ke 7 yah secara gue kuliah senen-kamis :P gue uda mulai mendingan. uda beberapa dari mereka yang gue kenal. uhuy!
minggu kedua, assignment mulai numpuk. gatau gimana ngerjainnya. masi blank blank blank. huahh.
berasa jadi nerd gue disini. tiap malem sekarang satu dua jem ada buat belajar. hasilnya? tetep suka bingung. huahaha dodol. belajar apa yah gue? :P
yaa semoga chapter ini bisa dilewati dengan baikbaikbaik!
allright. have to do that weirdo assignment. ciaoo!

huahh

2010-08-12T10:02:00.002+08:00

di kala bibir tak lagi berkata sesuai apa kata hati
mengatakan hal yang berkebalikan dengan kemauan hati sendiri
tak ada rasa lain selain ketidakpuasan
tapi terkadang rasanya sulit untuk mengatakan apa yang ingin hati katakan
biarlah aku disini yang menahan ketidakpuasan itu..

.

2010-08-05T11:10:00.003+08:00

my mood is so messed up these days.
bad temper.
yeaa maybe because i feel a little bit disappointed with my parents actually. but i don't want to tell you why.

nothing

2010-08-01T21:18:00.005+08:00

feeling blue. aneh yah kemarennya baru gue seneng bangetbanget. eeh kemaren pagiii.. huff. emang labil. entah mungkin garagara ngomongin tentang uni itu sama bokap. dia nanya gue mau kemana, waktu gue jawab dia nya malah gitu. agak kecewa sejujurnya. tapi mungkin dia bisa ngeliat muka gue yang begituu dia agak gimana juga kali yahh. ngajak ke agen akhirnya dia.
please GOD one more thing for this time. one more miracle..
tapi uda lebi enakan sih sekarang. uda cukup waktu merenungnya. walopun sebenernya lebi enak kali yah kalo gue ngomong sama orang lain. tapi harus ngebiasain diri deh nyelesein semua sendiri mikirin sendiri. orang lain juga sibuk sama kerjaan mereka kan? belajar mandiri! :)

senangsenang!~

2010-07-30T21:48:00.004+08:00

huaaaah aku sangat senang :D huahaha. ga sia sia bangun jem 6 :p uda kaya orang aneh memang. ckck saking tegangnyaa.
sepanjang jalan kesana uda dagdigdugguduggudug. pas udah mau nyampe jadi mikir lagi, ambil ga yah ambil ga yah. masuk ke IALF nya ngasih passport. dia ngasih kertas hasilnya. daan jengjeng. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa rasanya pengen tereak! noraknya kuaaar :P

hari ini aku senang. fishy senang. kami senang. anda?